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[Compared to the other two, Oswald is much more difficult to get time with. He only appears on school grounds on Tuesdays and Sundays.

Nonetheless if you're determined... he can be found. Most of that time is spent hovering around the Faculty Office. It's almost like the Entrance Exam made him anxious of just walking around freely or something...]

Comments

[preconstruction]

What happened to him?

[adminus]

[talking about it clearly hurts him, and yet he doesn’t shut down the conversation. he travels it carefully, letting the wounds re-open themselves.]

...I’m not sure one could say that the person known as “Jules” exists anymore.

[preconstruction]

Was he an android?

[ i mean come on you have to ask at this point. ]

[adminus]

No, he was a human. But— he was incredible. You might have thought his brain was a processor. He had so much potential.

[preconstruction]

[ connor smiles, happy to hear him talking about it. it's nice. ]

It sounds like you really cared about him.

[adminus]

[painful as it is maybe there will be some good to come out of facing it.]

Very much so. More than anyone.

[preconstruction]

Did he get sick?

[adminus]

He is. Sick. In a sense.

As Han would put it, he was Hijacked. But it was a very unusual case for him.

He was neither strong enough to fight it off, nor weak enough for it to take over him.

So now he rests in what may be an eternal coma. Unless an answer can be found.

[preconstruction]

I'm sorry to hear that.

[ he looks sad; hearing that - it's terrifying. the hijacking that had happened when they climbed the wall had sounded awful too. he hates the idea that someone could take over someone's body. that they could be hopeless. ]

I hope that you -- I hope you're able to save him.

[adminus]

...thank you. Truly. From the bottom of my heart.

[There could be no greater wish wasted on him than that one.]

[preconstruction]

There are others here who have those kinds of bonds with people. Who have people they love and want to see again.

[adminus]

I am aware. And... I do hope that they’ll pass and be able to do so.

But I cannot give that to them. Name me a villain and curse my name, but I cannot— not until this is over.

[preconstruction]

There might be a better way.

[adminus]

I’ve looked a long time, just to get this far.

And I’ll throw away everything I have; my dignity, my sanity or my life— for this chance.

[preconstruction]

Who would be left for Jules to come home to?

[adminus]

I told you. Selfish. He deserves his life.

I... no longer deserve mine. And that’s fine. As long as I can finish this first.

[preconstruction]

I doubt he would want it, alone.

[ he has had feelings for like four days but he knows he wouldn't want to live without the people he cares about. ]

[adminus]

I’m not the same person he remembers. He may not want “me” at his side anymore. He wouldn’t... have wanted any of this.

But he can start fresh. If I can give him that... it’s enough.

[preconstruction]

[ connor looks down at his hands. he looks sad. but he doesn't have much left in him today to keep arguing. he doesn't know jules and he doesn't have the upper hand, and the feelings he has he cannot even talk about because they are all wrapped up in all of the awful things that have happened today. he has spent all day trying to be a machine, trying to go back. it hasn't worked.

he can't keep doing this. ]

I apologize, I didn't come here to argue philosophy with you. I obviously don't understand the nature of your relationship with him, I shouldn't speculate.

[ he doesn't sound sarcastic, just defeated. ]

[adminus]

...no, the fault is mine.

The truth is, when I started out on this path, I accepted that I was throwing away any chance at the relationship I had with him. Hoping for anything more was... too impossible.

So it was fine if I let myself self-destruct. I had nothing left to lose. I’m only interested in my goals.

[...that’s funny, considering the way he clings to some people. As if he wants to find a place for himself, while subconsciously destroying every chance he has for himself.]

[preconstruction]

You see that in Lieutenant Anderson.

[ which is extra ironic since he knows hank likes (???) him. which is wild since he's an android, but okay. ]

[adminus]

...yes.

So I suppose I’d like him to find a happier ending than my own will be.

[preconstruction]

I'm afraid that you might only hurt him.

[ after all, that's why he came here. ]

I made him me promise that he wouldn't throw everything away. That we have to get home together.

[adminus]

You mean the punishment?

[Mmmm yeah this seems like a safe turn in conversation awesome.]

[preconstruction]

Yes.

[ sure does doesn't it ]